As promised we are entering the next stage of evolution for The Unspoken Ethic. When I started this blog I had one goal in mind, to tell my story of one of the hardest trials I have ever faced. To give people some insight into who I am and to throw some ideas out there from a perspective that we don’t normally consider them from. As time went on, I took a different approach taking on a philosophical tone towards things that I liked and related to. Time has moved on, like the world itself and I started noticing myself changing tones again. It is time for that change here, but as we all know what has left a mark on us, becomes something we stick with as we are creatures of habit. Over time, I kept seeing increasing signs, or maybe just opened my eyes to those signs a little more, and so even as I officially start down this path, I am forced to recall an unfinished battle from the place where I began this journey.

The above picture was of the Facebook post that started it all for me. It was written days after I went to stay with a friend and work on their farm, after leaving my wife. This was part of the 16 pages she printed out and gave to authorities as she filed a restraining order against me in the face of me being 30 miles away and refusing to talk to her when she called. I would also add that this was the only post printed that was missing it’s comments……miraculously. Here for the newbies to my site is where, once these printed comments came to the Roane County sheriffs station, one among them decided to circle half a sentence and took it to a circuit judge who signed off on an arrest warrant. Days later while I was in the process of cleaning and rehanging a storm door that had been blown off in a big storm a couple years before I had the county sheriffs, the state police, the FBI, Homeland Security and a K-9 unit roll up on the farm and take me into custody. Three days later I found out through a phone call that my arrest had made national news. WOWK TV handled it locally, FOX NEWS blasted it everywhere.

Now I have kept a decent eye on this over the years and the furthest it ever moved on Google search was 8 positions down on the first page when I would search my name. Earlier today I checked and the link shown in the above picture now goes to a blank page. As of late last year even, my mugshot came up among the first of my pictures and today it was nowhere to be seen accept on a Facebook page for West Virginia mugshots dated from August 29th 2013. As far as any reports surrounding it, I could find nothing, but I assure you as this picture shows, it happened.

I had spent 8 days in jail, and upon my release, made possible only by the prosecutor dropping my bail from the highest it could be for charge, which was 150,000 to the lowest 500. No press was present that day at my pretrial. I was released the following day. Now aside from my public defender who was not much more help to me than the following 2 that my case would be shunted off to over the course of the year it was in the system, I had family who had asked their attorneys what I should do. The consensus was to sit on my hands and say nothing. I kept an eye to see if anything had developed in the news. I was not contacted, no one was. The more I thought about my situation, the more I realized, that if I had to wait for my trial to have my side told in a small town court system where I was an outsider, it would be AFTER the only thing anyone who could be selected as a jury was exposed to the very INCOMPLETE version of the story ran by the press. The above was my response. I did not care about the risks. I believed that the rather careless reporting with it’s lack of any details beyond what would make the sheriffs department look like heroes, flew in the face of due process, considering it was the only version of the story put out to millions of Americans, not to mention any from the town where a jury of my peers would be selected. You always hear about the freedom of the press, but you never hear about how they use that freedom to interfere with the constitutional rights of the American people. Because they could not be OBJECTIVE, I was at greater RISK of being found guilty over a statement that was misrepresented in it’s context. If they had done their job, they might have looked at that post, because it was in FACT a PUBLIC POST. That half sentence would not be the only thing.

At the time of my arrest I had been doing volunteer work for a local community theater for the better part of 5 years. In that time I had served on the theater’s board of directors, which in turn saw me be invited to be part of the East End Alliance Halloweast committee which was formed by Charleston city officials to develop the East end of the city into an art center. The Halloweast committee planned and organized the yearly Halloween fundraising event made to help raise money for the task of turning the East End into an art center. While volunteering for this theater, we had made a deal with a locally started sci-fi/horror convention, which at the time was in it’s second year. Our theater’s building would house part of the conventions events. We and the convention people did a fair amount of cross promotion for one another. The picture that was referred to in the police report was actually part of that cross promotion and was in fact part of the volunteer work I had been doing. Now it seems to me, that the judgement of that picture came from yet another high profile media buzzed shooting, a judgement that did not include anyone bothering to look for the facts behind. You can go to my Wikipedia page and see that I have a history with this particular Local Theater Kanawha Players, and their minutes by the laws of a 501c3 are PUBLIC KNOWLEDGE. This ends MY PERSONAL experience with the bane that Partisan, non objective press and mass media has become to our society. Below is the link to my Wikipedia page.

Below is a link to an interesting article on writing headlines, the psychology of headlines and what makes for a successful headline. It states that in their study 8 out of 10 people only read the headline, 2 out of 10 read the article’s content. This is important when considering the immense growth of the internet and social media sites in the last decade. The growth of social media has added a rather dangerous element when combined with mass media outlets that are biased in their content. You see there is a rather important factor to consider when 8 out of 10 people only read the headlines and 2 out of 10 people read the content and that is when that content is biased in any way 10 out of 10 people come away from the article ill informed and that number grows exponentially when the biased or misinformation hits the internet in the social media circuit. This headline study also hits us with the success of negative superlatives and how online those headlines using words like: “Never” “Worst” had an average CTR (Click Through Rating) that was 63% higher than headlines with positive superlatives. They go to say that another study of 100 posts on tech site showed that headlines utilizing violent sounding words like: “kill” “fear” “dark” “bleeding” and “War” also had a higher number of social shares. Now where it comes to the media it is no secret that your local news will run a story of a bad wreck on the interstate that killed 3 people, sometimes hours later when clean up is no longer causing traffic delays and the wreck itself does nothing to change any kind of traffic laws in the area it happened in. Why this is considered news when it has no bearings on most of the viewership remains an unanswered question. Another unanswered question would be if they are intent on giving us “News” that essentially is not news so much as “life” and the sometimes unfortunate occurrences that befall people why not run stories on the estimated number of people who pass by that same spot on any given day, including the day of the wreck, that nothing happens to? This type of reporting turns the 3 people killed in an unfortunate accident from being people that are remembered fondly by a handful of family and friends into the people that are remembered by 10,000 viewers as the unfortunate people that were killed in an accident. This in turn leads us to another question. How much of how people view things like headlines utilizing negative or violent sounding words has been influenced in the course of time by the media? To be fair you also have to consider that when nothing happens, there is no news to tell and so through informing us when something occurs, the media automatically perpetuates attention to the negative by default. Are people negative by nature, or have we been conditioned to only pay attention to the negative instead of the whole picture? When we ask this question, we begin to see where opportunists, pushing agenda, take advantage of the system designed to inform people as a means to manipulate them instead. This too, is a very dangerous element. I will get more into this, but first I want to leave you this link to the article I have been writing about and yes, as you can tell by the title of this entry, made use of. It’s not so fun when the tables turn is it?

The power of the media to inform and influence has been well documented and in fact is the reason the press was given freedom under our Constitution, but freedom as we have always heard said here in America, is not free, there comes with it both sacrifice and responsibility.With this said it begs the question why there are politically partisan media outlets. Editorials and Magazines excluded, although I feel strongly that any News source that runs editorials should hold these editorials to account where stated “facts” are concerned by requiring reference points for where these numbers and facts come from. Below are 2 examples of this not being the case. Both editorials are focused on the DACA issue, however one is conservative based while the other is liberal. Again this leads to another question: If news is just news, just complete facts, Why then is there even such a thing as (left leaning) or (right leaning) NEWS? How much has this played a factor in the divide of  our people who once considered themselves simply Americans into a SPLIT between conservatives and liberals?

If you are still not convinced by that dear readers, here is another article making use of war time propaganda tactics. At what point do we begin recognizing this type of “reporting” as detrimental to the unity of our people?

It’s not just us here in America either. Lets take a look at a news source for one of allies. Remember 8 out of 10 people are only going to read the headline, what does this headline tell you? What the other 2 who actually read it get is how often young royals get away with things like this and even sometimes the older ones as well and it states an example of that. What it does not state is that this incident caused the royal couple any grief at all from the higher ranking royals……In fact you get left with the question: Who besides the people WRITING this article are even bringing attention to this breaking of protocol like it means something more than how it is even presented in the article itself?

While it’s nice to know we are not alone in the problem of an inflated press, I’m more concerned about our yard at the moment, but I wanted to show that inflated agenda driven press is a problem for more than just us. Let’s return now with another recent story that broke with 2 sides. In the face of #MeToo and #Timesup movements, strong emotions become a factor, sometimes, so much so that people are compelled to accentuate for the sake of making the movement stronger. This is a double edged sword as you see here in these 2 articles. Here by making a story more than what the person coming forward intended for it to be, giving that the main person involved in the accusation has been old news for awhile now, we get our first real close up of how the media creates situations that will in all likelihood do more to scare real victims away from coming forward with their stories. A lot of these people have remained quiet because they are nervous about coming forward, common sense dictates that when they start seeing media twist victim’s stories to be about something more in order to push an agenda, it will do little to encourage them to stand up. It will also amp up the drama to the point that people will start getting hit for nothing, because, and I can vouch for this due to my case, over the “climate” it creates, or after enough of that happens, what was once a movement will become a trend that no body can put any stock into. Is it worth that?

Quentin Tarantino Explains Everything: Uma Thurman, The ‘Kill Bill’ Crash & Harvey Weinstein

Now I come to the part where I return to the subject matter that once got me into trouble, but never the less I feel this needs to be addressed. That would be the topic of recent school shootings. Before I continue just for argument’s sake I want to state that NONE OF WHAT I SAY IN THIS PART IS A THREAT TO COMMIT ANY VIOLENT ACT. Some people had a problem with that concept the last time I just wanted to make that clear. Lets start with a chart that takes us from 1980 to 2012. A chart that shows all 137 incidents of fatal school shootings and the 297 people killed in those. Does it surprise you to see how the numbers start jumping in the latter half of that 32 year span? You always hear about the effects of violent video games and television programming, you hear about bullying and bad parents and I estimate some of these get more credit than they deserve while others don’t get enough, but how much of a change does our advancements in communications play a factor? One thing I noticed was the steady increase that coincides with the rise of the internet.

2014 rolls around and a new non profit organization called Everytown pops up. There are 2 things worth noting about this organization against gun violence. The first is that they created a very broad criteria base for what they consider to be school shootings. You will even find one of the original 18 school shootings that made their list was a suicidal veteran who called the police and told them he was suicidal before shooting himself in his car while in the parking lot of a school that had been closed down already, another was not even a matter of someone going psycho, in fact the person directly at fault was a cop for carelessly not paying attention when a 3rd grader fired his gun in it’s holster while the cop was sitting on a bench. Fortunately no one was hurt or killed in the incident. The second thing worth noting about this group is how much stock a lot of the media puts in the numbers they provide. Below is an article that notes all of the above. You will find that I chose this article from among the 2 that I found that states this group’s blatant scare tactics while pushing an agenda for gun control, because it is everything that earlier editorials were not. The writer gave reference points that could be clicked on to view the source, they even called out their own paper for being one of the ones that briefly used this groups numbers. It’s important to note that there are many good things that remain about the press and the media, I just firmly believe that we can no longer ignore the less favorable and downright dangerous ways that it has also misused it’s freedom at our expense.

Now lets discuss this knack the media has with it’s intense focus on these events to make celebrities out of murderers. Below is an article that again gives many reference points including a link to a study that looks into the copycat factor of many of these mass shootings. If the media is aware of this information you may ask Why are we not as likely to see these findings on the “News” during these moments of crisis as we are a group like Everytown’s? Why the bias?

So lets do the list shall we? In this entry I have covered  and given examples for comparison how the media has misused it’s freedom to:

1.Interfere with due process.

2. Design how the facts are presented to shape a story.

3. Use war time propaganda against our own people other AMERICANS.

4. Escalate the effect of emotion over reason on social issues to make a bigger story at even the expense of victims.

5. Use sensationalized numbers for the sake of pushing the agenda of gun control on the people.

6. Make celebrities out of murderers and in turn, YES, make themselves accomplices, however unwittingly to the further killing of our people.

…….And I did it ALL without screaming “FAKE NEWS” even once, I might add.

This entry is about breaking down the disease that is effecting our society. Now I’m not saying the media is solely to blame, because it isn’t, but it does play a factor. Social media plays another as does groups like Everytown that can’t grasp that reality is all the truth you need to scare people with and the instant gratification of readers thinking they are actually informed experts over reading a headline. There are many factors that combine into the perfect storm. They all have to be considered if we are to find any real solution.

One small way that media can help solve this issue from their end, would be to STOP RUNNING COMMERCIALS DURING NEWS BROADCASTS. I say this because with talk shows, game shows, sporting events, syndicated series, prime time award winning shows, any network has plenty of programming to make money running ads. Our NEWS BROADCASTS, should be to inform and educate us, that is, as our forefathers believed, highly important to our people and our nation and it should not be used as a tool for profiteering. When it is, of course the network will go out of it’s way to make sure it has enough viewers to that news broadcast to get a number of ads in. It becomes a controlling factor by which it operates and we have seen the effects. Anything to keep the buzz going, even over a tragic event makes it profitable while it deeply effects the foundation of this nation which is it’s people.  I don’t have a problem with big business, I would even be all for finding a reasonable way to supplement whatever they would lose running news programming without commercials, but the media needs to step back and look at it’s place in the mess we have to deal with moving forward.


Faster than a hungover moron contemplating calling the cops over a missing friend prank, being played by others who could have called the cops themselves. More business savvy than a camera crew making a point to get close ups of every single person plainly not enjoying your product through out an entire Pay- Per View. It’s a drunk, It’s a selfie posting skanky hoe, who talks through her nose  kinda like thith. NO! You Dumb Bastards….. It’s the TRUTH and it hurts like a bitch, which is what makes HONESTY so much more fun than LIES. Ha ha ha ha Oh, stay with me sweetness. I’m not that other writer Eric, it’s not in my nature to go quietly into that good night. Besides I have to bag tag you every once in a while because I know a couple Hungarian Baracudas that will just love me for it and go run their mouths to the next person I show support for, putting me on the map of yet ANOTHER person that I otherwise would never have been noticed by at this junction. And THEY get to find out how your little quartet operates, while as long as they don’t actually get involved with things themselves, I have ABSOLUTELY NO PROBLEM WITH THEM, Just your little clique…..And I’m even a helpful little bastard. See how that works? Why that Burn Notice shit doesn’t effect me, I’m too small, it only helps. Hi Red, What up double mint? This one’s for you sugar and sister, sister too.

Yeah sure we could make that film, but there’s this little pill, and we hate him and his honesty brand. So we don’t make that film, we’re gonna take that pill and fuck with him because we can. We’ll tell how he crawled out of Hell, and with a thunderous yell, declared I’m The Hater of Girls, and if his eye’s on you, He will brand your ass too and this is how their message ran… In their, SCIENCE FICTION OOOO OOO OOO DOUBLE FEATURE!  WE’LL TELL THE WORLD, BEWARE THIS CREATURE. Two siblings fighting the male oppressor. WHOA OH OH OH OHHHH At the late night, double feature picture show. Two ginger hoes. OH OH OHHH At the late night double feature, picture show…

Okay I’ve spent enough time fucking with third rate Scream Queens for shits and giggles, I just wanted to remind you that I’m STILL here and I NEVER forgive and I NEVER forget, and I BOW TO NO ONE.

Now, onto the Main Event of the post. Those of you who follow along with me on Twitter might have noticed that here lately I have been keeping watch on WWE. Now I grew up watching wrestling. My grandfather was a wrestler WAY back in the day. We used to have a streak of going to the matches at what was then The Ohio Center, that lasted for YEARS, every month, during the break of the show we were at, we would go get tickets for the following month. Even after moving to West Virginia following my mom’s death I kept up with it watching it on tv and gathering for the pay per views. I would say in the latter half of the Monday Night Wars, after being one of those people who flipped stations back and forth, I started getting away from it and then life happened, and while I would occasionally seek out updates when I heard something big was happening I had not really watched it for 17 years. In April when The Undertaker had what was being considered by many to be his last match, that kind of hooked me back in and I realized I did not know more than half of the faces I was seeing. Since then I have caught up with a Hell of a lot going back to last year and working my way forward. I like a lot of what I’m seeing, I think these, well Hell a lot of them are kids to me, some of them are near my age range, but a lot of them I got some years on. My problem is NOT with the performers….. WHO The FUCK is running this company now? Have you ever heard the expression It’s like watching a monkey trying to fuck a football? Yeah, it’s THAT bad. UNFORTUNATELY the performers are the ones who suffer for it, being the ones who actually put themselves out there for the world to see. For instance, back in the day when The Undertaker character allowed for all sorts of messed up match types, they all had a very real practical application and concept. Body bag match, Casket match, Buried alive match, and the most famous of all Hell in a Cell. They made sense…….. What the fuck is a House of Horrors Match? I watched it and I still can’t even figure out what it was meant to be but shitty edited student film with violence. See where I’m going with this? Even if you had pulled it off without the bad editing, it still made no practical sense. You have a freaky dude in Bray Wyatt and he could be the New Face of Fear, but NOT if this is how you are going to try to pull that off. The women’s division. Yes I am going there. As you may have noticed I have been pushing mainly their stuff of late. If you want to know WHY, it’s because they need it more than the guys do. That division has come and gone a couple times since I have been a fan, and while they now have an influx of new talent to pull from in NXT and they are closer now then they have ever been to making themselves a part of the bedrock of the industry they are not quite to that point yet. That is not an insult, it’s just a fact that the guys have been the bedrock for so long that even now where the women’s division is at, if it went under I don’t think it would be taking the company with it. When you can it would be as detrimental to the company to lose that division as it would be for the guys to go under, then you have hit that height. I would like to see it do that. It was a shame back in the day to see Sherri Martel NOT be able to do what she could do in the ring, because the division was just gone….even if it did mean that woman became the meanest ass person with a stiletto heel I have ever seen as a valet, this was a former champion who HAD the skill set to be one and she was actually my favorite back then. The dumb assery that as I have pointed out is across the board, even the guys are suffering for it, for the girls it’s even worse when it happens to them, because THEY really don’t need shit happening that’s going to make people lose interest in what they are doing for the business. A couple times, very recently and very close together it has happened to them. One was a disgusting display of the corporate monster trying to destroy the career of someone less than a year into being on the main roster. I’m talking about Bayley. Hell you can say they have bullied the poor girl from jump, they pushed her into a child like role and NOW have blasted the Hell out of her when their great brainstorm failed. It’s great to have a hero for the kids, it is. Hulk Hogan was one of the biggest heroes for all the little Hulkamaniacs out there the world over….. He talked to the kids in a way that inspired them, and he kicked ass in the ring…. NOW did they ever make him out to BE a kid? NO! Were they ever like Here comes the Hulkster YAAAAAYYYYYY?!!! Well maybe at an event that was predominantly kids, like a charity event, but NEVER when the entire fan base was watching….. So tell me why there is this dick buzzing in my ear IT’S BAYLEY BUDDIES!!!! When those used car lot inflatables pop up, like it’s a Goddamn episode of Barney and Friends, or like this is a birthday party? Yeah you got little kids watching at home, yeah she appeals to little kids, but you got a majority of people hearing that shit and it instantly grates on their nerves, because this isn’t fucking Blues Clues this is a simulated combat sporting show, get the fuck out of it. Hell all the girl CAN do is play to what she THINKS you expect of her and if it falls through and seems to have done just that, you’re gonna let it blow up in her face. I call bullshit, and I call it because there are things that you do that can destroy a character, and make it ten times harder for that person to sell it as anything but what it was shown as in that defining moment. You always hear these people talk about there has to be a balance to what you do in the ring in order to make both people look good, but there also has to be a balance in the story line as well and they took this girl from champion to making her look gullible, stupid and pathetically weak. The story that was told was that she didn’t belong period and punctuated with an ass beating with a kendo stick. Even if you think, maybe this girl is too nice and she needs to be taught a lesson that this is a business, You don’t pull shit like that, that openly, because the person you pulled it on, probably more so than anyone else in the division is CONSTANTLY giving shout outs to the NXT people and drawing attention to them, so I would imagine that a lot of them are keeping tabs on her and on the scene in general. If I’m one of the newbies in development and I see that shit, I’m immediately going over to that guy over there and being like “So you wrestled in Japan? What uh, What’s it like over there?” I am thinking of a future where I find somewhere else to take my skills and go to work. Hopefully they fix their fuck up and work with her. As it stands the only silver lining in that situation is that to have had the shortest match at the Extreme Rules Pay Per View, it was so fast paced and had a lot of high impact, and was brutal as fuck and because of this, it really did sort of end up being the ONLY match on the entire card that possessed the qualities to be worthy of the PPV title of EXTREME RULES. The girls did it better than the guys that night. In a way that was kind of like her hero shot, because NO ONE has been expected to take a shot  that sends you to the bottom of the list, just to give a hard ass match like that.

The second recent flub, has been on The Smack down side. This is a show, we know there is no such thing as a number one contender for a title and if there is one, it isn’t decided by any match, it’s decided on fan reaction and merchandise sells and basically what brings in the money. That said, one of the BIGGEST KEY FACTORS in story telling is suspension of disbelief. You are trying to make us buy into the idea that there is a number one contender spot that is being fought like Hell for. SO you build this story over a course of weeks, you have these 6 women going all out and the pay off is this Money in The Bank ladder match, the first time the girls have gotten to do it. and story goes whoever gets that briefcase at the top of the ladder has the power to call for a title match at ANY given time and place even in the middle of a match between the champion and someone else. You built this up, you made this big match, you have billed it as HISTORY MAKING and then last week you……. What? Suddenly realize that you haven’t been utilizing someone on the roster and make some cheap quick way to get them involved by giving them a title shot at the same pay per view where you have this History making match that was supposed to be for that title shot. It is made worse by the fact that this was the Smackdown debut of this person who has NOT been a part of this story line to date….. SO why have the ladder match, that History making match only to completely blow out the importance of the reason for having it in the first place? I get that you have to use EVERYBODY, but what would have been wrong with putting Lana and Naomi in a parking garage and snap pictures of a fight breaking out over the insults from earlier in the night, if they are traveling together to different shows you can build it up and get the word out over the network and when you come back on Tuesday, you can recap these outside televised event occurrence to give enough meat to justify making a non title grudge match at the pay per view, the winner of the ladder match could make it a title match on the spot, and the important thing is, there would be no way to know for sure that was going to happen until that ladder match happened first on the card, then people would figure it out, but the BIG match, the one you have been building for, for over a month now, will have already done what it was supposed to do and made the impact that it was MEANT to make. Now, what would have been a MASTERPIECE is just going to be really good and that only because there is too much pride and professionalism among those involved to do a shit show, because someone backstage dropped the ball. Back in the Day THAT SHIT DID NOT HAPPEN stories were tight, especially for pay per views and to make this screw up on the heels of shit ratings for your flagship show during a time when it had NO COMPETITION. I don’t see that being “Good for Business”, you know that’s ALWAYS the line. I’m wondering when Jon Stewart is going to become champion, then WWE can completely be downward spiraling WCW and without competition. If some one does not put a halt on, the pettiness, the carelessness, the sheer fucking stupidity, the in house sabotage, whatever the fuck it is, they are going to create the NEXT WCW and if this one is not run by money blowing morons, which seemed to be the general consensus WWE might not be the ones coming out on top of this next set of Monday Night Wars.

Not what you were expecting from me was it? LOL In case you did not notice from my opening to this entry I’m something of a wild and an untamed thing myself. You will never see where I’m coming from until I get there. I live for THE FIGHT, so Fuck all of you and have a really great night. Heh heh


“Deep down, Clark is a good person. Deep down, I’m not.” – Batman “HUSH”

I’m just going to come right out and say it. I live for the fight. I have tried multiple times to conform to what society deems “civilized” but I can’t unsee what I have seen, Life is like a magic trick. You see it and you go “Whoa, How did you do that?” Of course then we learn the trick and the magic is gone. When this happens, you never look at another Magic trick the same. The Magician tries to wow you, using the same dramatic lines and hand flourishes, but when you learn the trick, it doesn’t work on you anymore. You see the hype as what it is, Just hype, and you can’t recapture that sense of wonder you had the first time you saw it. That’s life, that is also why I take issue with what I call Care Bears or people who just spew rhetorical good guy bullshit, because it’s the hope people cling to, even when it isn’t the reality. So many use it just to make people nod their heads, or kiss their asses like they are some kind of Christ figure, when they themselves are anything but. You see these people preach accepting others for who they are and then turn around and blast someone for not being what they think they should be. You see them preach about sharing when they are the most self absorbed individuals around. And when all is said and done, the worst kind of people are the ones people end up looking up to. I can’t unsee what I have seen. I can’t unknow what I know, and try as I may, I just really can’t go along with the bullshit of it all. The worst thing about this, is when others try to get me to come around to their way of thinking, they use the SAME bullshit and it does more to incite rage in me than it does anything, because I hear them, but I see them just being the opposite of what they preach. I call them on the bullshit and suddenly I’m the bad guy. So fuck it. Yes I am the bad guy, but while I completely break down your actions and your words and then show how each part contradicts the next, all the supposed good guys have to offer… that same dogmatic crap that everyone says. “You’re negative.” “It’s more important to be kind than it is to be right.” or if they want to half ass seem intelligent about not having a real argument to back themselves up they resort to “That’s just not practice.” To which I say “Be the change you want to see in the world.”

I don’t think I would be half as pissed off as I am if I wasn’t expected to buy into the bullshit factor. If you are a sorry motherfucker, be a sorry motherfucker without apology and without trying to insult my fucking intelligence by spewing shit that you don’t hold true in your heart, and hoping it will make me and others not see you for the sorry motherfucker you actually are. Guess what, we’re the same.

I live for the fight. Which also means I am likely to die by the sword. I have had to do a lot of soul searching and I realize. I’m trying to be two different people, and the two types they are, they can’t settle in the same person. I want to make it as a writer, you have a dream, you set out to make that dream a reality. In order to do this, I have to give a little on my militant ways….Only problem is, I see so many doing that same thing and the end result is nothing changes, nothing gets better and I once lived my life, not knowing who I was…. It’s not worth it. I live for the fight, it is just in my nature. I held it back for so long trying to be something else that once I got the taste of it’s freedom, I never really looked back. I still argue a lot of points from a perspective of give and take. of compromise, but I am just as quick to tell someone what I think of them and their shit and I hold nothing back and am quite tactless about it. I don’t care. I can’t help but think that if more people actually felt that way about the fucked up things in this world there wouldn’t be enough examples of that fucked up shit to merit such a strong response from me in the first place. I’ve had people consider me rude for the things I say, what I say however comes from a place of truth. I find it fucked up, that I can be considered rude for saying it, while the person I’m saying it to can get a pass for actually conducting themselves in the manner that I blast them for. Words versus Action or as the old saying goes wish in one hand and shit in the other and see which fills up first. This too is another reason I just get fed up with people. Their inability to prioritize for shit and what it boils down to, what so many of these people who claim I am filling the world with such negativity really give a shit about is THEIR OWN comfort zone. They don’t care what the world gets filled with, if they did, they would have as much if not an even bigger problem with the actions of the person I’m blasting as they have with my words, but they don’t. I’m not claiming any high ground here, just stating how it is people butt heads like antelope. It’s just a primal thing. They speak from this deep rooted sense of self righteousness in admonishing me for speaking from that same type of deep rooted sense of self righteousness. The only difference is, I know I’m a bastard about it, but some things just need to hit home.

I live for the fight, and I call everyone on their shit. Lets take a moment here for a bit of role reversal in the hot topic of the current president of the United States. I don’t agree with a whole Hell of a lot the man says and does, but I want to take a moment here and just outright level his competition. Where were all these protesting celebrities during the election? Many have the money and the backing and in some cases the intelligence themselves to run for president, but not a single damn one of them stepped up and did, they just want to whine after the fact. Now you have a few who are just like I’m going to run in four years, Yeah well if this guy is as bad as you are making him out to be four years from now won’t matter, so why didn’t you step up when it counted? When it really fucking mattered? And would we have been any better off in a lot of these cases? Let’s take a look at the “Entertainment World” for a minute. The president puts a gag order on the press…… How much dirty ass, underhanded, elitist shit takes place in the entertainment business, that gets swept under a rug or no one wants to talk about because it will make this person look bad, or speaking out will get you black balled? That’s common policy and it is the same fucking thing as trying to silence people from telling the other side of the story, only they willingly protect one another from it in that world. Let’s talk about the positive things, is their policy it displays class, even if it isn’t the same as having any. and that goes down the line from the majors to the independent minor league ring, now it isn’t everyone but it is enough that it casts a sickening shadow over the industry as well as the decent ones in it who are different. “We made a bully our president.” they cry. Yeah well Disney made an ex convict Iron Man while they torment their own child actors with so many restrictions to keep a squeaky clean image that they can’t even be kids, Hollywood made a child molester an academy award winner, so who the fuck are you people to say shit? I get arrested for making a terroristic threat on a post that wasn’t even a statement of intent to act and yet Madonna can roll up in Washington DC and very publicly say some shit like she wanted to blow up the White House and yet she never got hand cuffs put on her. If nothing can be done to you people, why the fuck should anything be done about what Donald Trump has said and done? Heh heh, See what I did there? Just people butting heads like antelope and in this case it has been a matter of lets talk about this shit over here, but not about this shit over here because this shit over here is in our bedroom closet.

It all comes down to “The Comfort Zone”, the most important thing in the world is to be happy. Happiness in the eyes of society seems to lie in overlooking a lot of shit, but then crying when it comes back to haunt them. It’s that thing that happens almost daily in the projects, but isn’t a problem that gets addressed until it strikes some white suberb in a town where not everything is covered in graffiti. It’s that thing that is okay for me to do, but by God don’t let me catch you doing it. It’s that thing that is okay for guys to do, but girls should be scolded for it. It’s that thing a guy should never do, but girls can get away with, because little known secret, discrimination is in part a form of underestimation and as such can offer both oppression and special privilege and playing up those special privileges can be as detrimental to solving the discrimination issue as doing nothing, but let’s not talk about that part of it.

Damn son chill! I wish I could, but I live for the fight. I have seen so many good people get fucking shafted that I can’t believe just smiling and going on about your business is what will fix things. Positivity  for the sake of positivity without meaning or passion solves nothing in itself. Yet so many want to cling to the idea that it can,  or they just use it as a mask for their own gain. I’m no exception. I by my own nature I see it as having a choice of evils. Be this bastard, or be this person who really could not care less about anything.  Because you can support the best people in the world, but who’s going to protect those people from the bullshit that the worst ones will throw at them? What good does it do, to just do one without the other?

I recently made a big mistake in the process of trying to be that other person. I supported people that I just couldn’t get on board with for the sake of getting a credit on my IMDB page, because I haven’t really done anything in film for over 4 years and I was making this big push of doing all kinds of shit just to have a range of people to generate excitement over what I do. It seemed like a good idea in theory, but the more I saw of these people, the more I looked back into their history and saw. I came to the conclusion that they were just as fucking degenerate as I am, in their own way. That’s where I fuck up, it’s the same as back when I had the epiphany that my kindness and efforts were wasted on this type of person. I found more giving, compassionate, understanding, and decent human beings among the forgotten, than I ever met in the little tight knit art community I had previously bent over backward for. And when I started to really think about what I was doing in supporting these people I got thoroughly disgusted with myself, and my flaw became clear to me when I looked at another person who I was trying to support. The glaring differences. The first I gave 300, to mainly for that producer credit. I realized, that with them it was a matter of going back to what I knew,  Hell I expected everyone in that field to be just like them, and so I will not lie, I had no qualms with using them, to get what I wanted. First off, the self absorption level of these people were through the fucking roof and I saw a lot of the same shit from before. “Share what you love”, so that’s why you’re getting on there after the Academy Awards and talking about the big dogs just pretty much circle jerking each other, even as your little Indy bracket was circle jerking each other for……What? being more caring? Giving? Organized? Original? Decent? What pray tell can the independent horror film community really lay claim for being better than Hollywood for? Bitch, did you come down here after hurricane Katrina and try to help people get back in their homes? Because one of the leading people in that fight was Brad Pitt. You’re going to talk to people about dealing with depression on your web series and then get fucking drunk nearly every episode? Yeah believe me I got as disgusted with myself when I really thought about what I was backing, especially when I saw this other person, who is also in film, but they do other stuff as well. You know what was missing from her stuff? Bullshit. This is a lady who gets as little kid excited over  being able to teach a lesson to a 4th grade class about crystals as the other group was about going to some event to ahem circle jerk. Yeah I fucked up. I will continue to write, because I love doing it, but I got a solid wake up call as to what making it as a writer or anything can turn you into. I don’t want to support people who are as degenerate as me, I want to support people who are actually better. I severely told the first party off and blocked them… maybe not my shiniest of moments, but hey, I live for the fight and I don’t refrain from telling people what I really think of them, regardless of it blowing through that empty space between their ears. It’s what an Indigo Child is, it was our purpose for being here, tear the fucking nonsensical institution to shreds to pave the way for the better people than the rest of us to take over.

I say Goddamn, Face Book is WAY TOO fucking colorful theses days. I might as well throw my two cents in and piss a few people off at the Negative NIlly who is actually just a realist.

First off congratulations you guys have ONE less thing the government tells us we can’t do. Fuck, no matter what you believe that’s about a Goddamn victory for everybody. 😀 Way to go U.S. for finally giving in a little you cheap bastards and allowing everybody to share in the same business transaction you endorse instead of just Group A. That said, you do realize that was all it was EVER really about right? Do you really think a bunch of big wig politicians with a hidden taste for prostitutes and thievery was ever taking a MORAL STANCE against gay marriage? NO my friends that was JUST what the right wingers were telling the bible thumpers to keep the election funds coming in. You see the U.S. government has NEVER given a FUCK about who you LOVE or who you HATE. What they did give a fuck about was whenever you filed your W-2 whether or not you marked it SINGLE which allowed them to take more and give back less, or MARRIED which made them take less and give more back. 😀 The CONTROL of who could legally marry and who could not was never about belief, it was JUST BUSINESS. Oh and the whole Love WINS thing, it was just a tactical trade off for the government also recently deciding to once again try to erase a part of our history that covered a war that killed more Americans than any other over a Survey says…. Church shooting. WOW so like THE BIGGEST opposition, to gay marriage JUST got hit, in a fashion that draws attention to the RACE FACTOR, making folks jump up down and call for TAKING DOWN A FLAG, right BEFORE THIS MILESTONE decision gets passed by appointed officials, NOT elected ones. This had JACK SHIT to do with LOVE winning anything. Just as, if the Civil War was truly fought for the RIGHT REASON African Americans wouldn’t have STILL been fighting to be treated like everyone one else well over a century after the final shot was fired. Not saying it isn’t a win, just cautioning not to read TOO much into it being ALL ABOUT LOVE AND PROGRESS.

Now I’m HAPPY for you, but I am NOT celebrating this, NOT out of hate, but rather out of experience. I’ve been down that isle once already, it proved ONCE TOO MANY. I simply DO NOT believe in marriage PERIOD. I do not believe that it is a necessary step for COMMITMENT, commitment is being able to leave at any time and CHOOSING not to. The moment you see it is necessary, you limit the value of that bond to a ring and a piece of paper that allows the government all up in your personal shit. That’s another thing, yeah Welcome to our world guys. You just went from having the government tell you, you couldn’t do something to having them all over you for paper work to LEGALLY DOCUMENT your union. Now what does it mean to have the U. S. government in your personal union? Well it’s the polar opposite of what you had to face before being allowed to marry, NOW if you decide you can’t be with the person you are with, it’s A LOT harder to get away. That’s why you can get married in an hour but if you are LUCKY, a divorce will only take a month.

Well that’s just too early to even think about that, we were just finally allowed to get married. 😀 Yeah, that’s me, THE REALIST. In a perfect world you will show us ALL HOW IT IS DONE RIGHT. Honestly I hope you DO. HOPE, but I know better, I’ve seen enough gay couples to know that they are indeed JUST LIKE EVERYONE ELSE. So here is what’s going to happen A SHARP increase in marriages, which will temporarily decrease the divorce percentage over all. A couple, three years tops and then it will start making it’s way right back to where it is NOW and then INCREASE there after. That’s just life, that’s PEOPLE, especially PEOPLE in the fast paced American culture, where no matter your sex, race, sexual orientation, so many have grown up in an age where it is ALL ABOUT INSTANT GRATIFICATION. But, but, this is about LOVE. I HOPE so, I hope that all this fighting for the RIGHT to be allowed to do something you were NEVER ALLOWED to do before has not OVERSHADOWED the very CORE REASON for fighting for it in the first place. I HOPE, but I also DOUBT. I see, well most people as equal, those who I don’t EARN IT through lack of character. I simply DO NOT have the FAITH in people in general to believe otherwise. Love wins, only when it’s ENOUGH but it NEVER IS, is it? – Love BIG CAT