At this point I was already setting the stage. I had One: Kicked up enough shit and not only uncovered a few enemies, I had stirred enough shit among the people I use to call family that word was bound to be getting around. Two: I made sure the word getting around was that I was letting out secrets, had an inside ear, and was making a show of paydays and the funds that I was building making it clear that I was not going to be down for long. Three: By kicking up a fuss and raising the paranoia level of my enemy I was making life hard on those who thought I was insignificant by pointing that paranoia at everyone around her. There would be no feed back, it was a blind plan to this day I honestly don’t know if any of it was even required. My ex wife had already sent her new errand boy to constantly harass my sister via emails aimed at trying to coerce a location out of her. The only one who knew my actual location though had been my brother. The next phase of the plan had already started and that was trying to see who was actually on my side, since I had found enough enemies and to set up everyone else for the biggest fuck you, yet. They wanted to spew righteousness and this, that and the other, but in truth they were just Junior High School clique and I was going to show them that. This was to One: Piss them off enough to further get the rumor mill flowing and Two: Show them that a persons position is not always an accurate indicator of their true strength.
July 17th
It’s a pickle no doubt about it, the truth is I’m stable and making income, so there really is no way of knowing what’s smokescreen and what isn’t, no way to tell if I’m cooking hot dogs on a campfire laughing my ass off even as I write the most hateful sounding shit. But whichever the case, it does make you think, that has ever been the blessing to my curse. There will come a day I either get bored or get funded enough to leave this place and no longer have a reason to piss on it, until that day I will continue to give merit to what earns it AND serve anyone, meaning anyone and to anyone at ALLLLLLL!!!!! 😀 LOL < This was put up with a link to the video for Sweeney Todds “Have a little Priest” Yes I have a fucked up sense of humor, I also wanted to keep everyone confused as to what to expect from me and when, whether I was strong or weak. Hard for an enemy to fight back especially when those enemies are cowards when they are not really sure what it is they are getting into.
Well that turned out better than I thought. hmmmm It’s balanced enough. < Another quiz, this one pertaining to how good/evil you are. I got 43% good 57% evil neutral force.
Comments:
DM: 70% evil: Troublemaker. I disagree, though. I don’t make trouble; I am trouble. Note the subtle difference.
Shayne: Give me a couple more months, I’ll get there. < A lot of truth is spoken in jest. 😀 I did get there, when the strength I found to overcome would clash once more with petty vindictiveness.
😀 And remember kids if you THINK half the shit I say is just to get attention. 😀 Well that would just be kinda pointless wouldn’t it? I mean obviously you read it in order to have that thought in the first fucking place, which leads me to believe that you were always going to for whatever reason you may conjure up to feel better about it. 😀
Love, guttersnipe. < This post was like a gift that just kept on giving. I would use it many times to come in the future just to remind those who looked for trouble that they were going to find it, but then why anyone would LOOK for trouble and then blame the person who delivered is far beyond me. The reaction this got was priceless as no one could rightfully retort without making an ass of themselves. In chess that is called a forked attack which is simply placing a piece in just the right spot between two targets so that the opponent has no option but to choose which sacrifice to make. What this caused was an escalation in what I called the switch board effect. I would post and then suddenly my chat list would light up with the little green dots of people coming and going. It would eventually get to where I didn’t even see the flashing green dots, I just heard in my mind the inevitable phrase being cycled around. “Can you believe what that little motherfucker just wrote?”
Comments:
RN: Am I missing something?
Shayne: I actually have read the Art of War. Sometimes what I say is a matter of beating the ground to draw out the snakes. Sometimes it’s to appear strong when weak or weak when strong ( That ones a bit tricky, follow it to the letter and you’re predictable, appear as both…well then no enemy would know what to think you are, but insane 😀 and who wants to fuck with that? Especially when I have already displayed that I think ahead, consider my post from May 6, now I had hoped that it would be a deterrent but instead I had to use it to expose a terrible truth.) Sometimes I just want to show people something about themselves and as I am LEARNING, there is no better TEACHER of that than adversity. Sometimes It pays to remind people that it is like a finger pointing away to the moon, DO NOT concentrate on the finger or you will miss all that heavenly glory. 😉
July 19th
One of the most important lessons I have taken from my whole ordeal is a greater understanding of the truth that in this world where only the STRONG SURVIVE, those who beg for mercy are those too WEAK to deserve it…….Just keep in mind, for me the personal is just a bonus, it’s really only business.
Comments:
RN: Learn well and learn quickly. Looks like weather due to change for the worst by Sept-Oct. this winter will surpass last winter I’m afraid. You need to know- but I hated to break the news to you. Gotta find you a place asap
RN: Can you make out the maps and dates? < He had sent a couple weather prediction maps for the coming months. Some had expected the winter to be really bad.
Shayne: Providing I’m not back in my cage by then anyway, that is already in the works I’ve been all over the damn place putting many things in motion both in forward movement and back up in case my case goes foul. I get the maps, least ways enough to see like me, it’s as cold as the cold wind blows. 😀
RN: Expect 20-30 days below -10
Shayne: Shit, if I’m lucky enough to get the Not Guilty nod, I should be in a place by mid Sept, sooner possibly, my stack is growing and I have a couple other options other than the job that can help it do so even faster.
RN: Gambles are just that. Stay on the real road. Pays off faster in long run.
So earlier I said fuck it like, I’m gonna sign up on one o’ these online dating sites. I don’t have a suitable picture on this phone, but for my tag line I put “Yeah, you Hitler enough for me.” 30 Minutes later I already had 56 profile views, 15 flirts, 12 messages. It’s a strange fuckin world we live in. Ha ha
Comments:
DN:Â I signed up for one once and it said I had no matches
Shayne: If my “success ” so far is any indication I would say you won and I lost. 😀 I just bullshitted it, I meet crazy just fuckin fine on my own, hence the whole thing I keep going back to about the eco hut in the desert and changing my name to Ben. Believe me I still have a scar from a ring I’ve not worn in almost a full year, then there is every other crazy bitch I’ve encountered from the one who disappeared on me for a year only to come back with someone else’s kid, when I was still living at home JUST graduated. One during my marriage that was a psycho and wouldn’t leave me the fuck alone when I worked for CAMC and a myriad of others…..man relationships are WAY fuckin over rated. < I have not seen many examples to dissuade me from this point of view and have in fact…. well, only half joked about the next time I get involved with someone, writing to girls in mental institutions so that I could at least control the TYPE of crazy that got attracted to me the next go round. Yeah considering how the next 10 months would pan out I would say that was an EPIC FAIL on my part, I should’ve started writing to those institutions sooner. 😀
DN: I’ll just make one and make my name Adolf Stalin. Really fuck with people that way
Shayne: LOL Hell yeah. You know I think the biggest fuckin regret most people who know me have, is leaving my ass out here to entertain myself. That went south sooo damn fast, and it’s all because I’m an asshole.
Shayne: Oh and just to clarify, the CAMC bit was NOT an affair it was just a psychopath who would not leave my ass alone. Why did I not report it, that’s the rub, I did, but you try being the ONLY guy in an office full of women and see how serious that shit gets taken. < I have very distinct views when it comes to shit like this, but then you be on the receiving end of a line like. ” You remind me so much of my ex husband.”……. Yeah that’s a seriously weird ass fucking thing to say with glazed eyes and a goofy ass grin on your face. Never had much luck with women at least not here anyway. Who knows if writing to the mental institutions doesn’t pan out I might shoot for one of those mail order bride services. Either way it really can’t get much worse than a bitch trying to get me either locked up or killed.
And the time of the hanger ons is almost up. Go watch Jerry Springer for your fix. It only gets WORSE and more VENOMOUS from here.< Another chance for them run for the hills………. No one took it.
July 20th
What? You think I’m throwing a White Trash Party here or something? 😀 Here’s your sign.
Just in case there were some who missed the last post, or maybe if there was some sort of language barrier. You know, it’s always best if you are going to be an asshole to people to always offer them an out, even if they don’t take it they can never say you weren’t being fair enough to give them the choice. My big prank was set and I was about to start building for it. If any had come to me in the interest of straightening things, they would have got a pass, if any had left they would not have been there to see what was coming in the first place. Those who stayed… Well I think the message here was rather non ambiguous. FIX IT OR FUCK OFF.
In a good mood this evening, so I’m gonna take a minute just to deliver a temporary ( Well partial reprieve anyway)
Tonight I focus on my REAL enemy, the State. If you take a look below you will see three pictures, the first is a page from my discovery a.k.a the prosecutions case against me. It is part of the police report from my arrest. In the paragraph you may notice that it claims that the post contained photographs. This made no damn sense to me because I added no photos to that post. I found from the psyche evaluation that they were referring to my profile picture which is the second photo below. This photo was used to profile my ass as a potential “terroristic threat”
Now looking at photos 2 and 3 what do you notice they have in common? A little cross promotion maybe, between a convention and a theater that I was a part of for nearly five years. IRONIC is a word that comes to mind that the very picture that got me labeled the bad guy in the eyes of the law was DIRECTLY linked to the volunteer work I was doing. Ain’t that about a motherfucker? 😀 Try to be the fucking good guy just to get boned by it. Regardless I have that going for me as there is at least one or two members or more likely former members of the “family ” that would be willing to vouch for my involvement.
This is but a small piece to the reason I may seem…..a little more crass this past little over a year, then I might have seemed in the times prior to. I wasn’t shitting when I said I paid a price for the work I did, 8 days worth, with another one to three years plus 6 months for that copy computer charge the grand jury tacked to it as a possibility. Still in Purgatory, still all in my fucking face, dampening any Goddamn ray of hope from any victory I gain in my current predicament.
I would bet, you would crack too, just a little. It’s not that hateful darkness doesn’t seem so bad, it’s just the result looks the same from down here. Be thankful you aren’t me, if you’re not facing what I am from where I am, as nigh singlehandedly as I am. For tonight I am thankful for us all, that it didn’t happen to a person worse or more breakable than me.
Goodnight. < Okay they would not leave, now lets see which ones of those who stayed can be swayed by truth. This ladies and gentlemen and many other examples both seen and experienced personally is why I have such distaste for the bleeding heart Care Bears of the world. Some of us know better, some of us realize that change has to be fought for. Now there are two ways you can fight for that change. You can be the type of person who would go through with what I was accused of and change will happen, suddenly, from bad to worse.The shit storm mainstream media has made of the examples of people who have fought for change in this fashion and the inevitable over reaction caused by the fear it invokes has proven that fact time and again. I choose a different way. The pen is mightier than the sword approach or rather the pen as the sword approach. and many may not agree with my method any more than they agree with the former, all I can say to that is show me a world where “Being the change you want to see in the world” does not lead to what happened to me and I will concede my point. Interesting side note I would go on to actually stay true to my word and help volunteer for the event a little over a week after being released from jail on bond.
July 21st
You ever wanna be the person that causes that “aww man” moment? LOL I’m just a mean cocksucker I know. LOL I’ll fix it shortly, promise. < I was, I am, and I lied after careful consideration of how things had panned out. You see the Burly Q had just hit 1000 likes and they were just so excited when they announced, thing is, I was still one of them, at least until I brought them back to 999. 😀 I really was going to fix it, it was just such a petty little move, but then I had to ask myself the real question, What kind of message did it send giving support to those incapable of returning it in any real fashion?
Actually after thought, I’m done with silent voices. < This would generate a rift with another who it had absolutely nothing to do with. Another example of ebb and flow. a once long time friend and “Brother” ( See it isn’t always the bitches I duke it out with, sometimes it’s the faithful lap dog puppies as well.) Fuck it, he wanted to be that quick to accept exile without even coming to me to see if it had anything to do with him. He can get served with the fucking rest of them. Par for the course.
Now, now, I just rectified a little inequity. If there is just give and no take, then I am the same idiot who got themselves in this mess in the first place and…..well just blow my fucking brains out if I ever get that stupid again.< The girls got a little miffed over the 999 thing. 😀
July 22nd
Peace is a lie
There is only passion
Through passion, I gain strength.
Through strength, I gain power.
Through power, I gain victory
Through victory, my chains are broken
Peace is a lie
There is only passion
Through passion, I gain strength
Through strength, I gain power
Through power, I gain victory
Through victory, my chains are broken
Peace is a lie
There is only passion
Through passion, I gain strength
Through strength, I gain power
Through power, I gain victory
Through victory, my chains are broken
Whether struggling with our first steps in infancy, recovering from an injury, standing for a purpose, overcoming a bad habit protecting what is ours EVERYTHING we are in life is defined by CONFLICT great and small, within and without. When we forget this, we STAGNATE in a life and world where CHANGE occurs with or without our consent. Ever being FALSE FATES PUPPETS and only half of who we are, until the day none of our escapes can keep REGRET from making us wonder why we never felt COMPLETE and then we face, with or without our consent, another CONFLICT, with DESPAIR. < PM, tiny dancer, was struck rather hard by this one. This was NOT a direct assault either, in truth it really was a sort of self reflection given my situation and all the years I had spent being my wife’s little bitch, but hey….if the shoe fits. If the mantra, written in very “All work and no play” The Shining format, looks familiar to some of you geeks like me out there that’s because it is the code of the Sith. See where I’m going with this? The reactions when I finally brought my little prank to fruition was quite hilarious. I will get to that in the next piece. The final piece of July… You know because if I’m going to tell the part of the story called Henceforth You Will Be Known As DARTH VENOMOUS, it really should come in three parts…..Shouldn’t it? 😀
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